Note to self: No more immature bullshit.
When I'm bored and feeling insecure, I have a tendency to do stupid, self-indulgent things. I'm not used to feeling like this. I have nothing to complain about. But I've been complaining in my head, anyway.
Just now, I spent 30 minutes looking of photos of myself on facebook, trying to decide if I'm fat or not. (wtf.) As a result, I nearly forgot that I was supposed to put the soup on for my dad so he has something to eat when he gets home from doing real life work.
I'm too old for this crap. It's stupid, and it makes me think I'm crazy. Which I probably am.
I dunno if it's because I'm stuck in Midland, and I hate it. I dunno if it's because I have a date tomorrow (first one in a few months), and I'm freaking out irrationally. No excuse is good enough for me to indulge in this crap, though. I realized what I was doing and became promptly disgusted with myself.
Ugh. I need to focus on other things. \
Anyone got any thoughts on how I could correct this pattern of living/thinking?
That is all.
- I'mma feelin': disappointed